mmmcccxlix

étude sur la sobriété

before getting off
to the new job
i must first
find a job. i

imagine it my
gainful employ
ment of the
moment,

sitting here in
my home office
sending out
swaths of

letters of utmost
interest, the
latest iteration
of my résumé

attached to
each, completing
online applications
galore, part

icipating in one
videoconferenced
interview after
another, all the

while banging
away at my master
spreadsheet
just to keep

on top of it all.
the only problem is
a very distinct lack
of recompense

for all of this
hustle; it’s

all bang
and no buck.

and yet,
here i am,
nose to the
grindstone,

pushing this
fantasy out
as far as it
can possibly go,

living in
my brave,
imaginary
world.