and i do
really believe
that shedding a
genuine tear or
two is almost
always a
good thing
for me to do.
i am certain that
i could find some
logical way to
explain why
this is so,
but it would pro
bably take a while;
so for right now, all i
will say about that
is that i don’t
really know
why i cry when i
do. but i have cried
over breakup or two, for
example, and per
haps just a little
bit at one or
two weddings or over
the death of a person or
animal with whom i was part
icularly close, but these
are generally things
i never shed
a single tear at or
near. i will, however
let out a really good sob
at the end of a really
good movie or tv
show, or find
myself with that
certain feeling i get
directly before shedding
a teardrop or two
at some single
poignant moment
like, say, on a hike
as i step perhaps out of
a thicket and onto an over
look with a magnificent,
breathtaking view
or when listening
to music and a certain
song begins or there have
been moments as a member
of the audience at certain
performances, like
the symphony,
the opera, most
any theatrical prod
uction, especially if
it is a musical,
or even
during
the opening
credits while at the
cinema, but these
examples pretty
much exhaust
the list of
specific moments
when i find myself
in such a way that i am
taken over by the
act of weeping.
and as i mentioned
earlier, i definitely believe
that it is good and it is healthy
to have a cry now and
again; i always feel
better after, rare
as it may be
that i experience
such a thing – cathartic
is what i call the act of
doing so, a purging
away of some
not-so-good stuff
within me so as to re
fresh. so it must therefore be
that among my favorite
things, in general, are
beauty and art,
and also, and
more specifically,
i suppose, i would say
(and be there teardrops
or not, i would attest
that these are
things about me
which are very true)
that i love music and
performances of
almost any
kind (i
just re
membered
that i forgot to
mention dance, how
dancing, whether
done all by
myself,
alone or with
someone i love
or with a conglomerate of
friends, or, say, while
watching a ballet or
any such pro
duction of such
humanly movement
can and has at times
turned on the veri
table water
works), especially
those which in which
music plays an integral part
and driving cross country or
taking a train or a plane,
so long as there is
a window, or
taking a hike or
a city walk or sitting
atop the sand at a
beach or going
to the movies
or watching
television, and
most assuredly that
either reading or writing
a few pages of poetry,
these are a lot
of the things
that i must enjoy
the most (and i do
in this life thus far,
and because of
the very
existence of
each i am grateful
and feel most blessedly rich.
