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Poor Thing

It was more about breaking
barriers built by growing up
in one of those semi-ideal – it
really depends on who you ask

but if you ask me I’d say I am
quite appreciative of the fact
that I grew up in a rural southern
area with all of its mostly close-

minded stereotypes. There
was such amazing leeway, and
if you had always been a bit of a
goody-goody, if you waited later

than most it’d wind up being
something ideal to most every
one, your new nastier or more
well-rounded behavior. In my

case it came as late as after
graduation from 12th grade
and involved such things as

having a girlfriend for the first

time and not having a clue
about my actual sexuality.
It was the early 1980s in
smalltown Arkansas and

the curiosity, if even in the
slightest aggressive, would
pair with the up-to-now
good old boy naivete,

which created a bit of
a buffer. So suddenly,
add alcohol or pot
and it might just 

be possible to do
anything you want
with whomever you 

want, and when

there is consent, 

what amazing fun! 

But then comes
the second sexual

revolution, it
could come when
you’re anywhere
in your 40s to 60s,

most likely, I’d say.
And the first thing
you might notice is
what a hard edge it

has to it. And how
much more exhausting!
If it’s just happenstance
then that can be confusing,
but if it’s something you

find yourself putting a
lot of work into, just
tiring!  In that
latter case you’ll

find that it’s an
incredibly hard
climb, it’s tons
of tremendous work

and, here’s the real
clencher, there’s a lot
of preparation and
planning involved.

If you want to
make it really
happen, if you’re
one of those people

who generally expects,
inevitably, to have it
end in some action (my
god, if you’re not,

please keep your
distance from me,
just in case some
crazy notion night

arise), well I have so
little experience with this
second kind of intimacy
that I am as of yet

undecided regarding
whether any part of
that process is worth
a damn. But if it

isn’t, then what on
earth would that mean,
what’d be an approp
riate next step? I’m

so split
between

the two camps,
there are such

completely
different types 

of getting it on 

that, much as

I want to say that
it’s a treat either way,
I am just not entirely
sure whether there

is any need for
part two. Any
ideas on how
to live if one

opts out? Or
does anyone
have any al
ternative ways

to get there
that might re-
create the fun
and naivete

again, that might

make such a ven

ture more fun?
Serious question.