Saturday, August 02, 2025

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ill-fated

it was meant to be.
people say this a lot,
and it has turned me
off, for as long as i can

remember, as an excuse
to live life lazy.  but today
i’m wondering exactly what
is meant when it is said.  it

seems to me that there are
at least a couple of unsatis
fying options.  the most
obvious, i suppose, would

have some grand plan laid
out somewhere out of our
reach that gives us each a
predisposed destiny.  yuck!

or it could be more of a
complex tautological shrug
of the shoulders, something
like a well, that happened, and

there’s no going back; it can’t be
changed, it is what it is, what’s done
is done, it was meant to be
.  either
way, as far as i’m concerned, it’s a

pretty lame way to give up all
accountability and, furthermore,
if one were to believe such, why
set any goals at all?  when some

thing bad happens to me, first
i get all bent out of shape, sure.
but, and quickly, i go about moving
forward, learning from what happened,

readjusting whatever plans i have for
achieving whatever i want to get done
on this earth, how i’d like to be going
forward, and double down on getting

there the best way i can.  i guess
what i’m saying is that i don’t mind
being a sap so long as i’m not a lazy
sap.  i’m in as much control as is

humanly possible, or i damn well try
to be.  and when things go awry,
well, long story short, logic dictates 
that i remain as optimistic as possible, 

under whatever circumstances.

me