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but, your honor ... — (
our eyes meet. ) who’s the
understudy in this situation,
newbie? nope.
dumb-
ass binary. do you think that’d even
relatively be us, be
you and me?

what’s your favorite cocktail?
and make it the best story you ever
told. nah. let’s instead have the
essentials only. yeah, man, ... – we
really need to do this more often. we need more
stories. more, more, more! give me one, will ya?

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wax lips,
i dunno, dick
lacy,
dicks van dyke & patton,

marilu henner,
uh, memory expert?!
sassafrass (from an actual tree),
hot lips houlihan,
romper room,
oompa loompas,
outtasite! dynomite! and
mustaches à la the 1970’s

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floodwaters are
on the rise! enough to make
us start to worry alongside the
russian river here in northern california.
-
look as an
empty house crawls down
a lonely hill, drowns in said
flood tide, which, in turn

carries that home away.
lucky for the home, its human inhabitants, or
owners, were away at another ball game.
very lucky indeed.
everyone else (humans, homes, sprawling clover) crawls a little further up the
riverbank. true story.

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shalom.
are we on the air?
let’s talk about love. let’s
move our asses on the dancefloor after 4am
o’clock all the way to at least
noon or maybe the next nine pm.

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pink
is the first color that
zooms into my head upon feasting my eyes on this chip. i’m
zoning
as the kids these days don’t say anymore. a pink, actually, that
zigs (or zags) with purple to form an even more zippy fuchsia.
zoinks! awake now, i think this quite the color.     onward.

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today was tough. it seems of late that
each day gets tougher than the next. in
actuality, however, this month, if things go as planned,

let’s just say that i’ll get to
experience events more positively significant than
any i have in a
very long time. decades, maybe? and i’m not
exaggerating in the least.
so, dear diary, with fingers crossed and mind clean and focused, let’s do this!

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our paint chip named “octopus” is a
cute shade of dark lavender, it appears
to me. a purple that makes me both smile and slightly salivate.
over the years my taste changes, but more than any other color
purple has been my favorite color (sometimes it’s yellow, green, red or orange). i’m
up with excitement in a bit of a jump and manage (with too much regularity) to
slam against the shelf directly next to tHe bed in my tiny apartment. a magenta

       brUise appears on My knee a few short minutes thereAfter. maybe it’s a 

       momeNt to appreciate havIng A Mere 2 legs rather than 8.

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wasn’t gonna say it, but
i did.
lesser actions have caused me greater
dilemmas. but we all know i’m a

human dumdum. is that
understated or am i? trick question,
chump. what do i
know, though?
look at me, sitting here most
every night, spilling
buckets full of words. or
else i’m listening to them. semi-content. or
reading them aloud in near darkness (i.e., w/o my glasses)
reed moor pottery!
yep.  (but only if you wanna)

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here is
a little story i woke up this morning wanting to tell you, my
love. there was this kid, you see, who
fell out of a tree.
-
actually there are three stories i woke up
needing to relay to you,
dear. the first one is, please know, i’m
-
here. the second one, about that kid falling from
a peach tree nestled amongst three apple trees. that
little boy climbed right back up, never broke any bones, even to this day.
finally, there’s the story about our future.

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easier for a ca
mel to
be sliding through the
eye of some needle?
ready, set, run like hell!

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how bad can this get? is not at
all the kind of question to which we want to be waking up every day,
reeling, pondering with frantic anxiety, dread and, all too often, the
very depths of despair, newly established with
enraging multiplicity. so i learn, or try to, like the ever-
swelling multitudes, inhabitants of this earth, past and present, have done,
the ones who remain, who are able to maintain, to take things in
stride with a dignified fight. no retreat nor flight. remaining prone, yet living our best

      under such duress.

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said i
was
a bad boy. i lied. awkwardly yours, the
mushy
pushover

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each day, if i were to pray, i’d say
a prayer for another. sometimes i do that anyway.
really. or how about: on any given
living day, or at least on some, i

go about trying to say as little as possible.
rarely. but
even if this were true....
yesterday...all my troubles caught up with me.

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at this very moment, right
now, I’m editing poetry
that I wrote years ago, getting
it (nearly 4,600 poems at present) tucked into a
quintessentially narcissistic project that i nevertheless argue holds not exactly the
utmost importance but nevertheless has rather ubiquitous and therefore universal scope.
every angle an be argued, right? well, i’m doing that. presently. i am

likewise, simultaneously (or thereabouts), cleaning my tiny
apartment, making phone calls regarding therapy, taking phone
calls about jobs, applying for jobs, keeping myself hydrated, wondering about dinner. what
else? my mind seems to be wandering all over the place. and so i’m also wondering about
         the impact to each of these various tasks that this multi-tasking has. my conclusion:
         things will be fine. or maybe not. but there are pros and cons to getting one’s work
         done in such a manner. presently and summarily, i am just fine with that.

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to dive wholeheartedly back into television, swim into it. then,
enveloped so, experience again the feeling of losing oneself inside of it, to
reiterate this escape by
reinventing yourself as 

an entirely new

character.
one that somehow relates
to (it’s essential that you watch something of enough substance?)
the people within the show you generally love,
as well as the setting, the environment. keep at this for several seasons (needs strategy).

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blissful trills coming from just over that
low hill. and there’s gary, he’s playing a
ukelele that flutters around and twangs against the
effervescent sounds from the
birds who seem to be wending their
individual ways further down the hill. and
right about the time we hit the incline to work our ways up,
daniel’s breathing through his harmonica just to grease the hill-song’s best effects.

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bless this day, dear diary. yeah, right. but for crying out loud, how much
lower can he possibly sink us? it so stinks being unable to get off this ride. normally, i’d go
at him and his dastardly crew on social media. but that seems useless. so i’ve taken to
cursing them, and especially him, in my personal diary. i
know, i know, this is public, this is supposed to be poetry.

this is not the poetry
i’d rather be writing. but what are rules in such times. so, for now, most
every morning, i open my journal and i type “what a dick!” and thusly, my day begins.

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baloney, mister bozo! i’d
rather just keep my mouth shut. how utterly
odd, so very unlike me to so
willfully keep it zipped. but at present,
not taking the bait seems
-exasperatingly, at a minimum-
prudent. so, the
asshole wants to fuck with california?
please! bring it on! oops. it’s
extremely hard being silent while witnessing such
ridiculous bullshit transpiring. but this country, this

place, my home since the summer of love, so long
ago, before i had memory. it’s so depressing living with this
confounding corruption,
knowing how embarrassing and how dangerous and how degrading
a time to live within. i am here alone, my jaw dropping with such
galling regularity. closed off in a box within a box as i watch
everything, my home, my life, my country, slink, sink ever deeper and seemingly slip away.

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sincerest apologies, but please, please try to
understand that what this past
november’s election results squarely meant to me, resoundingly, was primarily
but one thing that i could not shake no matter how hard i tried. which is that an
unequivocal majority of the population of the country in which i was born and wherein i was
raised and have lived for my thus far entire life
simply would prefer that i did not exist. or certainly not so in
the country that has been my home since birth. and that perhaps those who voted for him
        understand this, much as i’d so like to believe it were not the case.

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put your money where your mouth
is – that’s a saying i’ve always sort of followed, only
now i am seeing two problems with following that literally. 1. at base this is a capitalist notion;
essentially swerve from having values based on such. 2. words are meaningless without action.