This length
of time
(this length!!)
is nothing
that I ever
once en-
visioned,
was une-
quivocally
never part
of any plan
(unless con-
spired). None-
theless, this
solitude is
what I
choose,
having
seeming-
ly such lit-
tle choice,
as it were.
As it were?
It isn’t. I
must move
on. I do.
