over two decades in the making. a timeshifting autobiographical poetry collage w/photography. a diaristic, nearly "daily writing" (ad)venture. new pieces are posted most days.. **new and in progress** -- recordings of each poem are being added. these are read by the author & posted to each poem's page. --Del Ray Cross (contact delraycross at gmail)
Sunday, April 30, 2023
mmmcmxliii
colours (xii)
going with the general theme, staying the course, certainly not
losing (we’re no losers!)
any steam in this long haul of a dream, one
cannot underestimate the power, good and bad—or at least
i surely find it near impossible to do so—of the ever-present distance –
endless as it is, that lies between us (each day yet in awe of its navigability).
ready, as ever, however, to eviscerate that obstacle, if obstacle it, indeed, be.
mmmcmxlii
close, yes, as close as we are, the miles that separate us
remarkably, and not all the time, but often are an aphrodisiac.
oh, sure, perhaps you’ve a preference for pressed flesh. spooning.
i certainly do. even as our lovely time accumulates, there are
so many new things to find out, it’s all
so exciting, isn’t it? in fantastic ways, of course, but also in
anxiety-producing ones. the so-called elephant in the room has
normalized, hence the del is short for delicate handling of this
taboo, which, for now, i fetishize, winkingly, like the distance between us.
Saturday, April 29, 2023
mmmcmxli
colours (x)
do not disturb. that’s wut
u said, i told the
solid mahogany door. that’s another color, by
the way. i can think of many a
bunny that (h)u(e) cd be [hee hee!]. but dust?
under whose moon? certainly
not mine. but, but: a ski bunny? a playboy, bunny or no?
not a bugs. no rascally rabbit, dummy; no dumb bunny, for sure. but,
you might cd be my nymphomajestic hunnybunny. if so, i do not mind.
do not disturb. that’s wut
u said, i told the
solid mahogany door. that’s another color, by
the way. i can think of many a
bunny that (h)u(e) cd be [hee hee!]. but dust?
under whose moon? certainly
not mine. but, but: a ski bunny? a playboy, bunny or no?
not a bugs. no rascally rabbit, dummy; no dumb bunny, for sure. but,
you might cd be my nymphomajestic hunnybunny. if so, i do not mind.
Thursday, April 27, 2023
mmmcmxl
colours (ix)
chance has given us, while
at first some downright head-scratchers, but look,
my deary dear, how on fire we are now! these
pyrotechnics have me
falling head tumbling hard over hot-hearted heels
in—is there a better color, a better word for this
reddest, hottest, red-hot
enchantment that lifts me now? (color me floaty, gliding above surfaces!)
chance has given us, while
at first some downright head-scratchers, but look,
my deary dear, how on fire we are now! these
pyrotechnics have me
falling head tumbling hard over hot-hearted heels
in—is there a better color, a better word for this
reddest, hottest, red-hot
enchantment that lifts me now? (color me floaty, gliding above surfaces!)
mmmcmxxxix
colours (viii)
so now we’re down to the nitty
and the gritty, which sounds reasonable,
not in the least dull. each
day gleams; but the opacity of romance & beach-walks . . .
so now we’re down to the nitty
and the gritty, which sounds reasonable,
not in the least dull. each
day gleams; but the opacity of romance & beach-walks . . .
mmmcmxxxviii
colours (vii)
how does
one differentiate
tint when it comes to hot or cold
potatoes? perhaps frozen
ones have lost
that loving feeling?
also, just learned that tint stands for
thanks, i needed that
on we go, hunny. still as lovingly humid—and as hot—as ever.
how does
one differentiate
tint when it comes to hot or cold
potatoes? perhaps frozen
ones have lost
that loving feeling?
also, just learned that tint stands for
thanks, i needed that
on we go, hunny. still as lovingly humid—and as hot—as ever.
mmmcmxxxvii
colours (vi)
settling in
upwards
now to
real robust colors – for ’round
about three and a half
years now,
sunshine (as in you are my) . . .
settling in
upwards
now to
real robust colors – for ’round
about three and a half
years now,
sunshine (as in you are my) . . .
mmmcmxxxvi
colours (v)
vim & vinegar
endlessly (i mean vigor)–
revving through each
day with a joie de vivre, unless
a distance keeps us out of sync–
nah–
to life – to love ...
vim & vinegar
endlessly (i mean vigor)–
revving through each
day with a joie de vivre, unless
a distance keeps us out of sync–
nah–
to life – to love ...
mmmcmxxxv
colours (iv)
unless i am stupid silly
(not counting stupid, silly, stupid in love, silly in love, etc.), i’m
del is short for deliriously,
endlessly, stark-
ravingly
this is not a
hue. (oh, you!) my heart,
endlessly,
sassily,
endlessly,
at port (but rocking, riding the waves, in heaven).
unless i am stupid silly
(not counting stupid, silly, stupid in love, silly in love, etc.), i’m
del is short for deliriously,
endlessly, stark-
ravingly
this is not a
hue. (oh, you!) my heart,
endlessly,
sassily,
endlessly,
at port (but rocking, riding the waves, in heaven).
mmmcmxxxiv
colours (iii)
how are these colors,
again (there are none w/o “o” & “u”!)??
please! (hee hee!) (am i too much?)
pretend i didn’t ask. because
i am not stupid. just stupid in
love.
yuck! blech! (wink! wank! wunk!)
everybody shut up! i’m really
very
ecstatic about these
ready-mades.
a practicality.
for you, of course. can’t you tell? even though i
told you already. it’s impossible to shut me up.
endlessly
repetitive. it’s a love story that just won’t quit. (so sue me!) <3
how are these colors,
again (there are none w/o “o” & “u”!)??
please! (hee hee!) (am i too much?)
pretend i didn’t ask. because
i am not stupid. just stupid in
love.
yuck! blech! (wink! wank! wunk!)
everybody shut up! i’m really
very
ecstatic about these
ready-mades.
a practicality.
for you, of course. can’t you tell? even though i
told you already. it’s impossible to shut me up.
endlessly
repetitive. it’s a love story that just won’t quit. (so sue me!) <3
Wednesday, April 26, 2023
mmmcmxxxiii
colours (ii)
there was a yellow wood. oh, the
hinterlands (since i’m not from
england, as they say). this is
ridiculously pleasant (my attempt to remove the
on again off again from my title).
and what a title it turns out to be,
doe ray me. del ray me, that is. and so,
la, a note to follow sew. but that’s another lyric,
exceptional as it may be, but
slightly less “frosty,”
shall we say, than
the road less traveled. yet. isn’t this
really a note
about you and me? a few scribbles
verily thereupon? and
endlessly he goes, on and on, but about what?
love? and
endlessly. it’s certainly about time.
delinquent is short for del.
there was a yellow wood. oh, the
hinterlands (since i’m not from
england, as they say). this is
ridiculously pleasant (my attempt to remove the
on again off again from my title).
and what a title it turns out to be,
doe ray me. del ray me, that is. and so,
la, a note to follow sew. but that’s another lyric,
exceptional as it may be, but
slightly less “frosty,”
shall we say, than
the road less traveled. yet. isn’t this
really a note
about you and me? a few scribbles
verily thereupon? and
endlessly he goes, on and on, but about what?
love? and
endlessly. it’s certainly about time.
delinquent is short for del.
mmmcmxxxii
colours (i)
but this isn’t a
real color? is it?
am i out of touch?
(i find that hard to believe.)
nevertheless, (i mean consider the circumstances)
this is where we find ours
elves. [i.e., barely containing our elves]
am i not
seriously hilarious? well.
everybody’s got somebody sometimes.
randy? is that your name? (nah. haha.)
but this isn’t a
real color? is it?
am i out of touch?
(i find that hard to believe.)
nevertheless, (i mean consider the circumstances)
this is where we find ours
elves. [i.e., barely containing our elves]
am i not
seriously hilarious? well.
everybody’s got somebody sometimes.
randy? is that your name? (nah. haha.)
Thursday, April 20, 2023
mmmcmxxxi
A Motley Slew of Others’ Utterances
In the armpit of summer. In the asshole of August.
—Chen Chen
What you see and what you hear depends
a great deal on where you are standing. It
also depends on what sort of person you are.
—C.S. Lewis
It’s really helpful to just touch the earth cuz there are just vibrations there that
you really need. and safety!
—Qveen Herby
Swapping and cheating are as a labor of love
for all concerned.
—John Ashbery
Thank goodness for alternatives to “penis” and “anus.”
—Chen Chen
The throng came on strong.
—John Ashbery
“cockpipe cosmonaut”
—Chen Chen
he fell apart, he rained, he flew, he sang—
—Joseph Lease
Yet, you were “splendid.”
You have answered every question.
—John Ashbery
—Qveen Herby
Swapping and cheating are as a labor of love
for all concerned.
—John Ashbery
Thank goodness for alternatives to “penis” and “anus.”
—Chen Chen
The throng came on strong.
—John Ashbery
“cockpipe cosmonaut”
—Chen Chen
he fell apart, he rained, he flew, he sang—
—Joseph Lease
Yet, you were “splendid.”
You have answered every question.
—John Ashbery
Wednesday, April 19, 2023
mmmcmxxx
The Program of Unreel
The first day of class
was always a lesson
in humility. And she
thought she was the
professor. But it was
always the humility of
the person in charge
that had to be blown
up in scale. That was
the lesson. These no
bodies, these small
young humans, were
being given a task in
which none would re
turn. But before that,
there would be such
individual hell for
each of them. The
bedlam that this un
godly universe had
bestown upon this
planet, she thought.
Was she, though, not
at least a little bit more
satisfied with the life
that she’d been given
thanks to the fact that
she was the harbinger
of such horrid news,
rather than given the
poor path that each of
her students would head,
toward the destiny of a
naive death, toward a
seemingly premature
end? She was. She
was. This could not
be denied, even at
such a time as this.
“Welcome to the
deprogramming,
class. I can
assure you
that you each
of your work cut
out for you.” Good
luck, she thought.
And the class
had begun.
The first day of class
was always a lesson
in humility. And she
thought she was the
professor. But it was
always the humility of
the person in charge
that had to be blown
up in scale. That was
the lesson. These no
bodies, these small
young humans, were
being given a task in
which none would re
turn. But before that,
there would be such
individual hell for
each of them. The
bedlam that this un
godly universe had
bestown upon this
planet, she thought.
Was she, though, not
at least a little bit more
satisfied with the life
that she’d been given
thanks to the fact that
she was the harbinger
of such horrid news,
rather than given the
poor path that each of
her students would head,
toward the destiny of a
naive death, toward a
seemingly premature
end? She was. She
was. This could not
be denied, even at
such a time as this.
“Welcome to the
deprogramming,
class. I can
assure you
that you each
of your work cut
out for you.” Good
luck, she thought.
And the class
had begun.
mmmcmxxix
No Dreams Here
“But Pippa, you’re
frightening me!”
And then she was
awake, once again,
strapped to all of
the same monitors,
listening to the blips
and the bleeps and
the ticks and the
noises of paper
being spit, being
spewed, being
eaten, being
shredded and
being stacked
and stacked
until the crumple
folded in on itself,
flattening quite
a bit, and then
waiting for the
moment when
what was then
piling above the
collapsed bundle
would be collapsed
atop of as the next
ball of tickertape
became burdened
by its very maze
of roadmaps de
noting the glitches
and the ups and the
downs and the slow
rises and overly long
decrescendos. Esther
looked around at all
of this, but only for
a split second until
the staff were on her
with a simultaneous
bombardment of
questions. As she
lay there, able to
somehow ignore
the usual barrage
of questioning, she
closed her eyes again,
thought of Pippa, and
with every single part
of her that could still
pack a punch, she was
for the first time able
to go back home, to
her Pippa, she went
back for good, to see
her lovely daughter,
to replay that one
game of hide-and-
seek that went awry.
She had miscalculated.
The moment she realized
Pippa was gone, the second
she felt as if she were scream
ing “But, Pippa! Pippa! Come
back, Pippa! You’re scaring
the hell out of me!” she felt
herself uncontrollably enter
consciously into the waking
life, where she stayed, for
at least a bit longer than
the last time, until she
was able to ascertain
that it had been two weeks
and three days since the
staff had last seen her
conscious, had asked,
as always, in the bomb
ardment that was their
immediate questioning,
that one question that
always stood out, more
clear than any of the
others being slung at
her all at once, “Esther,
Esther, who’s Pippia?”
“Who is Pippa?”
“Esther?!”
“But Pippa, you’re
frightening me!”
And then she was
awake, once again,
strapped to all of
the same monitors,
listening to the blips
and the bleeps and
the ticks and the
noises of paper
being spit, being
spewed, being
eaten, being
shredded and
being stacked
and stacked
until the crumple
folded in on itself,
flattening quite
a bit, and then
waiting for the
moment when
what was then
piling above the
collapsed bundle
would be collapsed
atop of as the next
ball of tickertape
became burdened
by its very maze
of roadmaps de
noting the glitches
and the ups and the
downs and the slow
rises and overly long
decrescendos. Esther
looked around at all
of this, but only for
a split second until
the staff were on her
with a simultaneous
bombardment of
questions. As she
lay there, able to
somehow ignore
the usual barrage
of questioning, she
closed her eyes again,
thought of Pippa, and
with every single part
of her that could still
pack a punch, she was
for the first time able
to go back home, to
her Pippa, she went
back for good, to see
her lovely daughter,
to replay that one
game of hide-and-
seek that went awry.
She had miscalculated.
The moment she realized
Pippa was gone, the second
she felt as if she were scream
ing “But, Pippa! Pippa! Come
back, Pippa! You’re scaring
the hell out of me!” she felt
herself uncontrollably enter
consciously into the waking
life, where she stayed, for
at least a bit longer than
the last time, until she
was able to ascertain
that it had been two weeks
and three days since the
staff had last seen her
conscious, had asked,
as always, in the bomb
ardment that was their
immediate questioning,
that one question that
always stood out, more
clear than any of the
others being slung at
her all at once, “Esther,
Esther, who’s Pippia?”
“Who is Pippa?”
“Esther?!”
mmmcmxxviii
Frantic Antics
no, YOU’RE the
jokester! not ME!
but you were (for
once) not being a
jokester. how
serious
things got (and,
between you and
me, for absolutely
no good reason)?
oh, hold your
hot head, kiddo.
how’d you know
i did that?! WHEN’d
you know i did that?!
then you both
scroll up as far as
today’s conversation
went. and reread.
and reread. you
REARENDED me!
i what?? you
heard me! and
on this goes, in
more odd ways
than either of you
can imagine, so that
both of you have built
a special fiction that
just occurred, based
on what you think
you know about
the other. and
you both know
a lot! however,
how these mis
understandings
have each of our
dear characters
out-glowering
the other: but
YOU said! hang
ON there, mister!
oh, no, no NO—
[unignorably
interrupting]
BUT YOU
STARTed it!
how long
this goes
on tonight
will be based
strictly on whose
sense of humor
is at present
more deprived
than the other’s.
no, YOU’RE the
jokester! not ME!
but you were (for
once) not being a
jokester. how
serious
things got (and,
between you and
me, for absolutely
no good reason)?
oh, hold your
hot head, kiddo.
how’d you know
i did that?! WHEN’d
you know i did that?!
then you both
scroll up as far as
today’s conversation
went. and reread.
and reread. you
REARENDED me!
i what?? you
heard me! and
on this goes, in
more odd ways
than either of you
can imagine, so that
both of you have built
a special fiction that
just occurred, based
on what you think
you know about
the other. and
you both know
a lot! however,
how these mis
understandings
have each of our
dear characters
out-glowering
the other: but
YOU said! hang
ON there, mister!
oh, no, no NO—
[unignorably
interrupting]
BUT YOU
STARTed it!
how long
this goes
on tonight
will be based
strictly on whose
sense of humor
is at present
more deprived
than the other’s.
mmmcmxxvii
Too Vague?
“I know, I know,
you want to learn
more,” he said, more
sure of himself than
usual, even. The
speaker detected
an eyeroll or four
as his gut sunk to
the floor. He
nevertheless carried
on. And on and on
and on. Saying
everything and
nothing. His words
were there, of this
anyone in the room
would have been sure,
whether or not they
were paying attention.
But what of the content
of all of those words.
“What did the substance
equal,” thought Charlotte,
who had come here from
her algebra class. “I’m so
sleepy,” thought Ted, who
in all manner of definition,
was asleep. “Make this
class be over,” heralded
the man in Harold’s head.
And just like that, the
clock struck the hour,
the bell rang, and while
the man the students
knew nothing of, yet
heard his words in
endless repeat during
recurring nightmares
each had ongoing,
kept on as if the
bell had not been
rung for at least a
full minute before
seeming to realize
that class was over.
He then had the
wherewithal to
bookmark is place,
say goodbye to the
students (none of
them heard this,
most were already
out the door), and
sat down to open
the drawer to pick
out the book for
the next class,
which would begin
in about ten minutes.
By this time Harold
the Warlock was
already home,
really quite
please with
himself, and
the world that
he had so
swiftly and
hilariously
created.
“I know, I know,
you want to learn
more,” he said, more
sure of himself than
usual, even. The
speaker detected
an eyeroll or four
as his gut sunk to
the floor. He
nevertheless carried
on. And on and on
and on. Saying
everything and
nothing. His words
were there, of this
anyone in the room
would have been sure,
whether or not they
were paying attention.
But what of the content
of all of those words.
“What did the substance
equal,” thought Charlotte,
who had come here from
her algebra class. “I’m so
sleepy,” thought Ted, who
in all manner of definition,
was asleep. “Make this
class be over,” heralded
the man in Harold’s head.
And just like that, the
clock struck the hour,
the bell rang, and while
the man the students
knew nothing of, yet
heard his words in
endless repeat during
recurring nightmares
each had ongoing,
kept on as if the
bell had not been
rung for at least a
full minute before
seeming to realize
that class was over.
He then had the
wherewithal to
bookmark is place,
say goodbye to the
students (none of
them heard this,
most were already
out the door), and
sat down to open
the drawer to pick
out the book for
the next class,
which would begin
in about ten minutes.
By this time Harold
the Warlock was
already home,
really quite
please with
himself, and
the world that
he had so
swiftly and
hilariously
created.
mmmcmxxvi
Jump Start
3:47am.
you say you
want to keep
a journal?
warts and
all, you say.
fine. let’s
do it. it
is the day
of poetry,
[this year].
those are
hardly
warts! do
something
worthwhile!
3:47am.
you say you
want to keep
a journal?
warts and
all, you say.
fine. let’s
do it. it
is the day
of poetry,
[this year].
those are
hardly
warts! do
something
worthwhile!
Monday, April 17, 2023
mmmcmxxv
Driven
I have driven
this country
from coast
to coast (or
so) several
times. I’ve
taken long
weekend
trips up
and down
California,
where I’ve
lived now
for twenty-
three years.
I’ve driven
into and
through
each and
every con
tiguous
state. I’m
just talking
about where
I’ve driven.
Flying is
another
story. I
drove an
electric car
all the way
home and
back (home
being Arkansas) –
that was around
two decades ago.
I’ve driven into
Canada one way
and driven back
to this country
another. But
for eight years
now, I have not
driven anywhere.
Nowhere. It’s not
that my drive is
gone. Or else,
this is the story
that I am telling.
My drive burns
hot like tar on
the freeway.
This is what
I remind
myself
tonight.
I have driven
this country
from coast
to coast (or
so) several
times. I’ve
taken long
weekend
trips up
and down
California,
where I’ve
lived now
for twenty-
three years.
I’ve driven
into and
through
each and
every con
tiguous
state. I’m
just talking
about where
I’ve driven.
Flying is
another
story. I
drove an
electric car
all the way
home and
back (home
being Arkansas) –
that was around
two decades ago.
I’ve driven into
Canada one way
and driven back
to this country
another. But
for eight years
now, I have not
driven anywhere.
Nowhere. It’s not
that my drive is
gone. Or else,
this is the story
that I am telling.
My drive burns
hot like tar on
the freeway.
This is what
I remind
myself
tonight.
Thursday, April 13, 2023
mmmcmxxiv
The Wounded Optimist
A confluence of
misfortune had me—
it has had me—hasn’t it?
For far too long. Still, I am
stuck in its craw. Also, here I am,
the victor who traded in a tragedic
downfall with nearly a decade of
comedic pratfalls. Oh, shut up!
Go ahead and tell them straight
that you spent your third
afternoon within a year
at the emergency room.
And dispense with the
suspense, suggesting
once again the most
transparent approach:
that a month ago today
you had surgery to rid
yourself of something
scary (note the practice
you have of being vague),
and that you are, while still
officially recuperating,
by all measure at your
avail (which is no small
amount of measure)
free and clear of that
scary something. Of
that inevitability. And
so I make this clear to
at least myself. And in
doing so, why do I find
myself back at the
beginning, at a
confluence of
misfortune?
Ever the
skeptic,
the optimist
rises, looks around,
breathes deeply inward,
exhales softly until seemingly
devoid of oxygen, of air, of that
life-giving force, and there he
freezes, momentarily, for long
enough to hear nothing but the
beating of his heart. He stands
here long enough to notice that
he’s hungry, as well. And to
realize, as always (as always)
that there is so much that
must be done. And so he
snaps out of it. For now.
A beacon of health, for
his age. At this he
chuckles, but softly
enough, and probably
rolls his eyes up under
his lids at the same time.
Then he clenches his fists
just a bit, then shakes them
both out, a one and a two,
gathers about his focus,
and places most of it
on those tasks at hand,
with the faintest notion
somewhere at the perimeter
of his focus that the seemingly
endless list at which he must so
maim with checks and slashes
is but a finite list. (And what
shall he do with such a
notion as this?)
A confluence of
misfortune had me—
it has had me—hasn’t it?
For far too long. Still, I am
stuck in its craw. Also, here I am,
the victor who traded in a tragedic
downfall with nearly a decade of
comedic pratfalls. Oh, shut up!
Go ahead and tell them straight
that you spent your third
afternoon within a year
at the emergency room.
And dispense with the
suspense, suggesting
once again the most
transparent approach:
that a month ago today
you had surgery to rid
yourself of something
scary (note the practice
you have of being vague),
and that you are, while still
officially recuperating,
by all measure at your
avail (which is no small
amount of measure)
free and clear of that
scary something. Of
that inevitability. And
so I make this clear to
at least myself. And in
doing so, why do I find
myself back at the
beginning, at a
confluence of
misfortune?
Ever the
skeptic,
the optimist
rises, looks around,
breathes deeply inward,
exhales softly until seemingly
devoid of oxygen, of air, of that
life-giving force, and there he
freezes, momentarily, for long
enough to hear nothing but the
beating of his heart. He stands
here long enough to notice that
he’s hungry, as well. And to
realize, as always (as always)
that there is so much that
must be done. And so he
snaps out of it. For now.
A beacon of health, for
his age. At this he
chuckles, but softly
enough, and probably
rolls his eyes up under
his lids at the same time.
Then he clenches his fists
just a bit, then shakes them
both out, a one and a two,
gathers about his focus,
and places most of it
on those tasks at hand,
with the faintest notion
somewhere at the perimeter
of his focus that the seemingly
endless list at which he must so
maim with checks and slashes
is but a finite list. (And what
shall he do with such a
notion as this?)
Wednesday, April 12, 2023
mmmcmxxiii
Other Lovers
And they said
honesty. They
said write through
the pain and the
ecstasy. Oh, there
are so many tales
yet to be told so
we can’t grow old,
no, we won’t grow
old. And so I give you
Lipstick and Lunar, who
were lovers in the war.
She fought for the Day
light, he fought for the
Dark Night. Sometime
after that, when the world
was settled down, at the quiet
end of their long cherry-floored
flat these two would lounge all
morning. Coffee And Ray of Sun,
that is, before they came undone.
They lived in an times of hidden
lovers curling heads around corners
just to get glimpses of like-minded
eyes. And, yes, there are others,
there are so many lovers whose
stories never saw the light of day
(but Coffee and Ray, they’d sit at
the end of the flat and stare up at
the sky and, intermittently, into
each other’s eyes, back and forth
it went like this until around about
afternoon). I once knew a love so
intergalactic, well, this is earth,
though, and what an excellent
planet. These two, one cool
and blue and wet and the other
so tall and built of stone, of tree,
of firmament. The two had known
each other for more generations
than either could count, they’d
found each other by meeting
and never unmet. One could
look out over the other’s great
expanse. The other would coax
and would tickle the great looker’s
sensitive, craggy base. You can
find them still, as in love now as
ever, if you’ve a map to where
Boundary Waters meets Ol’
Mountain Peak. Then there’s
the tale of the long-distance
lovers, Ol’ Peak’s cousin, Mister
Mountain Peak, who rises most
high in the Adirondacks and
his lonely companion who juts
so sheerly, so gorgeously, so
austerely, way out on the
western edge of the Rockies.
If you’ve ever heard one holler
out to the other, you’ve heard
a most hollow and craven tone
that would jelly most all of your
solidest bones. Then, my dears,
the lovely pastel ladies, Coral
and Bramble, who keep each
other company day in and
day out, only, you won’t
find one embracing the
other. No, their con
nection occurs with
nary a collision,
no sweet em
brace, but
neither
will tell you
that this fact
is tragic. “It’s
just a way
And they said
honesty. They
said write through
the pain and the
ecstasy. Oh, there
are so many tales
yet to be told so
we can’t grow old,
no, we won’t grow
old. And so I give you
Lipstick and Lunar, who
were lovers in the war.
She fought for the Day
light, he fought for the
Dark Night. Sometime
after that, when the world
was settled down, at the quiet
end of their long cherry-floored
flat these two would lounge all
morning. Coffee And Ray of Sun,
that is, before they came undone.
They lived in an times of hidden
lovers curling heads around corners
just to get glimpses of like-minded
eyes. And, yes, there are others,
there are so many lovers whose
stories never saw the light of day
(but Coffee and Ray, they’d sit at
the end of the flat and stare up at
the sky and, intermittently, into
each other’s eyes, back and forth
it went like this until around about
afternoon). I once knew a love so
intergalactic, well, this is earth,
though, and what an excellent
planet. These two, one cool
and blue and wet and the other
so tall and built of stone, of tree,
of firmament. The two had known
each other for more generations
than either could count, they’d
found each other by meeting
and never unmet. One could
look out over the other’s great
expanse. The other would coax
and would tickle the great looker’s
sensitive, craggy base. You can
find them still, as in love now as
ever, if you’ve a map to where
Boundary Waters meets Ol’
Mountain Peak. Then there’s
the tale of the long-distance
lovers, Ol’ Peak’s cousin, Mister
Mountain Peak, who rises most
high in the Adirondacks and
his lonely companion who juts
so sheerly, so gorgeously, so
austerely, way out on the
western edge of the Rockies.
If you’ve ever heard one holler
out to the other, you’ve heard
a most hollow and craven tone
that would jelly most all of your
solidest bones. Then, my dears,
the lovely pastel ladies, Coral
and Bramble, who keep each
other company day in and
day out, only, you won’t
find one embracing the
other. No, their con
nection occurs with
nary a collision,
no sweet em
brace, but
neither
will tell you
that this fact
is tragic. “It’s
just a way
Tuesday, April 11, 2023
mmmcmxxii
...There’s Fire.
Cowering under the covers
in the gigantic bed was the
poor Smoke Signal, his fear
of failing to get his message
to the intended recipient had
him crying big smoky, sausage-
shaped tears. This went on for
some time, which was enough
for Hot Pink to sneak in and
pounce upon the big puffy
blanket that Smoke had
been hiding away under
because he thought Hot,
his one true love, had
just walked out on
him. Ms. Pink was
such a trickster, he
thought, as he burst
from underneath the
covers all gray (with
a faint rosy tint, thanks
to Pink’s hypnotic aura)
until he hovered near
the ceiling with his
love’s body splayed
proportionately be
neath him. They
kept this distance
for as long as they
could, giggling and
cooing for the entire
duration until, unable
to take it any longer,
Smoke began to sink
like a hungry fog until
he became one—
Hot Smoke Pink
Signal Hot Smoke
Pink Signal—and
thusly they were con
vinced they would
commingle forever.
Cowering under the covers
in the gigantic bed was the
poor Smoke Signal, his fear
of failing to get his message
to the intended recipient had
him crying big smoky, sausage-
shaped tears. This went on for
some time, which was enough
for Hot Pink to sneak in and
pounce upon the big puffy
blanket that Smoke had
been hiding away under
because he thought Hot,
his one true love, had
just walked out on
him. Ms. Pink was
such a trickster, he
thought, as he burst
from underneath the
covers all gray (with
a faint rosy tint, thanks
to Pink’s hypnotic aura)
until he hovered near
the ceiling with his
love’s body splayed
proportionately be
neath him. They
kept this distance
for as long as they
could, giggling and
cooing for the entire
duration until, unable
to take it any longer,
Smoke began to sink
like a hungry fog until
he became one—
Hot Smoke Pink
Signal Hot Smoke
Pink Signal—and
thusly they were con
vinced they would
commingle forever.
mmmcmxxi
The Basics,
Bay, indentation, viscous rocks
that are somebody’s pleasure. Pleasures that don’t go away
but don’t exactly stay,
stay the way they were meant to be.
—John Ashbery
being what they are,
the why and how of
living, would seem to
be qualities or values
that are universal, if
not scientific. but,
upon some reflection
and a generous chunk
of living, that begins
to seem a rather sel
fish perspective. i’d
wager this rather
seasoned view could
be put to test polling
a quorum from just
about anywhere by
asking the following
question to one and
all: true love or true
crime? gather up the
votes and what will
you find? while i have
yet to perform such
a study, and you
might scoff at my
method, or may
suggest my query
might be leading,
has some sort of
bias, who doesn’t
think that, once
your ‘scientific’
tally is complete,
a fairly obvious
deduction with
regard to our
fellow humans
would likely be
Bay, indentation, viscous rocks
that are somebody’s pleasure. Pleasures that don’t go away
but don’t exactly stay,
stay the way they were meant to be.
—John Ashbery
being what they are,
the why and how of
living, would seem to
be qualities or values
that are universal, if
not scientific. but,
upon some reflection
and a generous chunk
of living, that begins
to seem a rather sel
fish perspective. i’d
wager this rather
seasoned view could
be put to test polling
a quorum from just
about anywhere by
asking the following
question to one and
all: true love or true
crime? gather up the
votes and what will
you find? while i have
yet to perform such
a study, and you
might scoff at my
method, or may
suggest my query
might be leading,
has some sort of
bias, who doesn’t
think that, once
your ‘scientific’
tally is complete,
a fairly obvious
deduction with
regard to our
fellow humans
would likely be
that there are
those among us
who would find
crime preferable
Saturday, April 08, 2023
mmmcmxx
Asserted with Certitude
isn’t as redundant as
sloppy seconds. unless,
of course, you’re as foul-
mouthed as she is (i am).
gather ’round children, a
tale is to be told. it’s quite
taller than me, but way
shorter than earth’s
last gasp (egad!). mealy-
mouthed mop-heads be
happy, for sadness is
irredeemable. why?
’cuz liquid’s in demand (
take my scorched earth,
please!), unlike liquidity.
we take up too much
space within a thinning
atmosphere (upon this
spinning sphere) wherein
we’re soon to be vaporized;
wherein there ain’t no vapor.
“crepes or pancakes?” ask
the upper crust all crusty-
like. “cakes or pies,”
says i, my eyes so wildly
on the prize (the game
show door slides open,
johnny olson trumpets,
“a box of full of brand
new mildew!” a box
of brand new. bran
flakes were breakfast
once. now we get
our mildew shake,
return to the set
like strutting
turkeys, stutter
our dialog, all
monologue,
engagement
no longer
a human
bean to
bean
thing
but
some
thing
jean-luc
picard once
wittily sung
to engineering.
and the stars
shook in the
wake of the
starship. amen.
isn’t as redundant as
sloppy seconds. unless,
of course, you’re as foul-
mouthed as she is (i am).
gather ’round children, a
tale is to be told. it’s quite
taller than me, but way
shorter than earth’s
last gasp (egad!). mealy-
mouthed mop-heads be
happy, for sadness is
irredeemable. why?
’cuz liquid’s in demand (
take my scorched earth,
please!), unlike liquidity.
we take up too much
space within a thinning
atmosphere (upon this
spinning sphere) wherein
we’re soon to be vaporized;
wherein there ain’t no vapor.
“crepes or pancakes?” ask
the upper crust all crusty-
like. “cakes or pies,”
says i, my eyes so wildly
on the prize (the game
show door slides open,
johnny olson trumpets,
“a box of full of brand
new mildew!” a box
of brand new. bran
flakes were breakfast
once. now we get
our mildew shake,
return to the set
like strutting
turkeys, stutter
our dialog, all
monologue,
engagement
no longer
a human
bean to
bean
thing
but
some
thing
jean-luc
picard once
wittily sung
to engineering.
and the stars
shook in the
wake of the
starship. amen.
Thursday, April 06, 2023
mmmcmxix
(Don’t) Shut Up!
Sometimes,
I am quiet
for what
seems like
an eternity,
but this is
not really
me. This
is out of
necessity,
practical
ity (I used
to have a
lot of folks
with whom
I could and
would freely
speak—at
times with
a fire in my
voice that
would be
met with
as much
red-faced
determin
ation as
I, myself,
could del
iver). To
anyone
who feels
stifled, I
say speak
out, do not
shut up or
down. I
stand with
you, even
if what you
have to say
is at odds
with what
lies at the
depths of
my convict
ions, my
most stead
fast beliefs.
Sometimes,
I am quiet
for what
seems like
an eternity,
but this is
not really
me. This
is out of
necessity,
practical
ity (I used
to have a
lot of folks
with whom
I could and
would freely
speak—at
times with
a fire in my
voice that
would be
met with
as much
red-faced
determin
ation as
I, myself,
could del
iver). To
anyone
who feels
stifled, I
say speak
out, do not
shut up or
down. I
stand with
you, even
if what you
have to say
is at odds
with what
lies at the
depths of
my convict
ions, my
most stead
fast beliefs.
Or yours.
I look for
ward to a
day when
conversa
tion is a
luxury
for me
once
more;
it will
come.
For now,
silence
goes on
with rare
interruptions,
except in my
heart and in
my head and
on this virtual
page where I
speak and I
speak as if
perfecting
language
and honing
the art of
sway, or
this is what
I say to my
self, an in
ward mantra
that bangs like
cathedral bells
behind my eyes
and between my
ears. I’m so
I look for
ward to a
day when
conversa
tion is a
luxury
for me
once
more;
it will
come.
For now,
silence
goes on
with rare
interruptions,
except in my
heart and in
my head and
on this virtual
page where I
speak and I
speak as if
perfecting
language
and honing
the art of
sway, or
this is what
I say to my
self, an in
ward mantra
that bangs like
cathedral bells
behind my eyes
and between my
ears. I’m so
mmmcmxviii
Not Your Grandparents’ Serendipity
Where were we? Oh, here.
For just a moment there. . . .
Okay, contestants, whomever gets
closest without going over doesn’t
have to spontaneously combust:
What hour is the golden hour?
How about next full moon, you
and me dive into the gorgeous
ness that is the Grand Canyon?
No parachutes!
This one is multiple choice, so
to speak. But it’s also first
come, first served, only one
contestant per hole. Ready?
Quickly, jump into the rabbit
hole you think isn’t filled with
liquid magma! Don’t forget,
only one player per hole. And
there’s only one hole that isn’t—
ouch! that had to hurt!—filled
with molten lava. Also, last
person standing gets electrocuted.
Alright, have any one of you here
ever been frostbitten? Show of
hands? I see, I see, it looks like
about a half a dozen of you. Ok,
all at once, press the button at
the elbow end of your right arm
rest [staccato’d screams shoot
from the audience]. Ooh, that
had to smart. We’ve been work
ing on an electric chair alternative
that freezes the bones instantly
rather than fries the victim to
death. Attention! Attention!
Mandatory breakfast in the
commons. We’ve got our
best, freshly squeezed,
rotten eggs (a sprinkle
of charcoal dust costs
extra, while supplies
last!). Guilty pleasure
at every twist and turn,
I tell you. But, honey,
come here. Do you
realize that everytime
you walk through the
spotlight, your skin gets
translucent and you glow
the color of key lime pie?
Oy, have I gained weight.
It’s a—this is—I’m standing
on a—on a WHAT? On a
Geiger Counter??!
Where were we? Oh, here.
For just a moment there. . . .
Okay, contestants, whomever gets
closest without going over doesn’t
have to spontaneously combust:
What hour is the golden hour?
How about next full moon, you
and me dive into the gorgeous
ness that is the Grand Canyon?
No parachutes!
This one is multiple choice, so
to speak. But it’s also first
come, first served, only one
contestant per hole. Ready?
Quickly, jump into the rabbit
hole you think isn’t filled with
liquid magma! Don’t forget,
only one player per hole. And
there’s only one hole that isn’t—
ouch! that had to hurt!—filled
with molten lava. Also, last
person standing gets electrocuted.
Alright, have any one of you here
ever been frostbitten? Show of
hands? I see, I see, it looks like
about a half a dozen of you. Ok,
all at once, press the button at
the elbow end of your right arm
rest [staccato’d screams shoot
from the audience]. Ooh, that
had to smart. We’ve been work
ing on an electric chair alternative
that freezes the bones instantly
rather than fries the victim to
death. Attention! Attention!
Mandatory breakfast in the
commons. We’ve got our
best, freshly squeezed,
rotten eggs (a sprinkle
of charcoal dust costs
extra, while supplies
last!). Guilty pleasure
at every twist and turn,
I tell you. But, honey,
come here. Do you
realize that everytime
you walk through the
spotlight, your skin gets
translucent and you glow
the color of key lime pie?
Oy, have I gained weight.
It’s a—this is—I’m standing
on a—on a WHAT? On a
Geiger Counter??!
Wednesday, April 05, 2023
mmmcmxvii
Big News
Excuse me! Excuse me!?
I’ve got gigantic news. I
have swapped careers. No
longer will my job involve
frigidity. No longer will I
chair the Department of
Scorched Earth. Who
here remembers that
duration of fertility
which we once
called Spring?
Probably not.
Nevertheless,
I’ve big news to
relay to you. Which
will, I hope, in fact,
Excuse me! Excuse me!?
I’ve got gigantic news. I
have swapped careers. No
longer will my job involve
frigidity. No longer will I
chair the Department of
Scorched Earth. Who
here remembers that
duration of fertility
which we once
called Spring?
Probably not.
Nevertheless,
I’ve big news to
relay to you. Which
will, I hope, in fact,
I trust, enrich each
and all of you, my
lovely employees.
Believe you me,
you’ll feel a warmth
in your hearts, a pep
and all of you, my
lovely employees.
Believe you me,
you’ll feel a warmth
in your hearts, a pep
in your step, within
days, perhaps even
beginning right this
moment, a certain
warmth down here
where it counts, a
pride in your work
that you all once
felt in ignorance,
perhaps, but
soon, thereafter,
lost like the vapor
of a lake that, over
time, evaporates
into a desiccated
trough that looks
from above as if a
monstrous giant
punched its fist
once, and hard,
into the earth.
So here’s what’s
happening, listen
intently, and revel
in the elation that
you will assuredly
begin to feel as
this news begins
to sink in.... a)
Your blank
canvas will be
as if a walk—a
veritable airy skip—
across the surface of
the moon; b) Cellists
will heretofore be allowed,
nay, be required, to pass
your office existences in
uniform. These are being
designed as I relay this to
you, and I am giddy to
inform you that the
uniform design is
based roughly on
that of a monk’s
robe. Hold your
applause, please.
Hold your applause.
c) At the after-party
directly following this
announcement, we must
all meet under the huge tent
that has just gone up over
Parklets 24Z, 34B, and 81T.
While there will be plenty of
goodies, I have been given the
okay to relay that among them
will be bottomless margaritas
that have been infused with
the grated hearts of the
earth’s last remaining
mountain lions; d) No
days, perhaps even
beginning right this
moment, a certain
warmth down here
where it counts, a
pride in your work
that you all once
felt in ignorance,
perhaps, but
soon, thereafter,
lost like the vapor
of a lake that, over
time, evaporates
into a desiccated
trough that looks
from above as if a
monstrous giant
punched its fist
once, and hard,
into the earth.
So here’s what’s
happening, listen
intently, and revel
in the elation that
you will assuredly
begin to feel as
this news begins
to sink in.... a)
Your blank
canvas will be
as if a walk—a
veritable airy skip—
across the surface of
the moon; b) Cellists
will heretofore be allowed,
nay, be required, to pass
your office existences in
uniform. These are being
designed as I relay this to
you, and I am giddy to
inform you that the
uniform design is
based roughly on
that of a monk’s
robe. Hold your
applause, please.
Hold your applause.
c) At the after-party
directly following this
announcement, we must
all meet under the huge tent
that has just gone up over
Parklets 24Z, 34B, and 81T.
While there will be plenty of
goodies, I have been given the
okay to relay that among them
will be bottomless margaritas
that have been infused with
the grated hearts of the
earth’s last remaining
mountain lions; d) No
more nurseries at dawn.
Rather, we’ve enlisted
Rather, we’ve enlisted
the assistance of—well,
in truth we just today
finalized the purchase
of the company—the
hot, revolutionary neo-
consortium of artificial
intelligentsia, The Handy
Nannies. e) This one is
just a clue to a lovely game
we’ve in store for everyone
in the department. Ready?
The tooth of wisdom lies
among the ancient (tooth
less) stables; f) Jack,
you’re a peach. I
love you. And,
finally, g) Re:
the light that
enriches our
souls...that’s
right! Each of
you will be going
home with your
very own depart
mental lantern!
Yes, now, well,
let this all soak
in a bit, but while
it does, please make
your way out to the
parklet tent. I shall
see you all there!
in truth we just today
finalized the purchase
of the company—the
hot, revolutionary neo-
consortium of artificial
intelligentsia, The Handy
Nannies. e) This one is
just a clue to a lovely game
we’ve in store for everyone
in the department. Ready?
The tooth of wisdom lies
among the ancient (tooth
less) stables; f) Jack,
you’re a peach. I
love you. And,
finally, g) Re:
the light that
enriches our
souls...that’s
right! Each of
you will be going
home with your
very own depart
mental lantern!
Yes, now, well,
let this all soak
in a bit, but while
it does, please make
your way out to the
parklet tent. I shall
see you all there!
mmmcmxvi
Heal
What the world needs now is love, sweet love
—Hal David
thinking of
the week
previous,
the man’s
travels had
taken him
nearly through
the heart of
the desert,
where he
witnessed
a seemingly
miles-long
line of leathery
inchworms
making its
way through
the endless
dunes. today,
trying to keep
it all together,
he places his
small square
of cloth over
a few of the
stalks in the
giant wheat
field that he
has allowed
to envelop
him, reaches
into his back
pack, takes
out a small
tub of food,
mulligatawny
soup, in this
case. he sips
without a
utensil until
the tub is
empty. too
much turmeric,
he thinks. he is
contemplating
life’s paradoxes,
like how this wheat
grows in this hyper
bolic heat. how just
last night he drank
the nectar of a pair
of peaches that he’d
found in a shaded
dell. his travels
have not exactly
been random,
much as it might
appear, even in
his delusions,
the red flags
that appear all
too often of late.
he knows the sun
is setting too slowly,
but the delusions have
made him drowsy. he
removes the pipe from
his bag, realizing briefly
the irony of the notion of
quelling his delusions by
smoking from the few
remaining embers of
tangerine dream.
he places himself
squarely within the
milk way in hopes of,
more irony, settling his
senses, becoming a bit
more grounded, as sleep
inevitably comes. he
dreams of the cliff-
dwellers with whom
he spent weeks earlier,
was it really the winter?
seasons are such useless
bits of nostalgia, he thinks
he sings as a slips into a
dream in which he is in
a vast and scorching
emptiness, wearing
tattered clothing,
dripping in sweat,
and having nothing
else in his possession
but a wishbone, which
turns out to be only
representative as he
tries to break it, as if
only the good luck might
prevail over the hand
that holds that shorter
end. It won’t break.
He’s worked himself
into a sweat trying to
pull the bone apart
before realizing that
it’s a sculpture, an
artist’s rendition,
perhaps of sculpture.
When he awakens,
finally, in the heat
of the night, in the
middle of the field
of wheat standing
still for lack of any
breeze with which
the tall stalks can
commingle, he
has in his hand
the wishbone
sculpture. he
will never know
this, but it is
sculpted entirely
from stone
—Hal David
thinking of
the week
previous,
the man’s
travels had
taken him
nearly through
the heart of
the desert,
where he
witnessed
a seemingly
miles-long
line of leathery
inchworms
making its
way through
the endless
dunes. today,
trying to keep
it all together,
he places his
small square
of cloth over
a few of the
stalks in the
giant wheat
field that he
has allowed
to envelop
him, reaches
into his back
pack, takes
out a small
tub of food,
mulligatawny
soup, in this
case. he sips
without a
utensil until
the tub is
empty. too
much turmeric,
he thinks. he is
contemplating
life’s paradoxes,
like how this wheat
grows in this hyper
bolic heat. how just
last night he drank
the nectar of a pair
of peaches that he’d
found in a shaded
dell. his travels
have not exactly
been random,
much as it might
appear, even in
his delusions,
the red flags
that appear all
too often of late.
he knows the sun
is setting too slowly,
but the delusions have
made him drowsy. he
removes the pipe from
his bag, realizing briefly
the irony of the notion of
quelling his delusions by
smoking from the few
remaining embers of
tangerine dream.
he places himself
squarely within the
milk way in hopes of,
more irony, settling his
senses, becoming a bit
more grounded, as sleep
inevitably comes. he
dreams of the cliff-
dwellers with whom
he spent weeks earlier,
was it really the winter?
seasons are such useless
bits of nostalgia, he thinks
he sings as a slips into a
dream in which he is in
a vast and scorching
emptiness, wearing
tattered clothing,
dripping in sweat,
and having nothing
else in his possession
but a wishbone, which
turns out to be only
representative as he
tries to break it, as if
only the good luck might
prevail over the hand
that holds that shorter
end. It won’t break.
He’s worked himself
into a sweat trying to
pull the bone apart
before realizing that
it’s a sculpture, an
artist’s rendition,
perhaps of sculpture.
When he awakens,
finally, in the heat
of the night, in the
middle of the field
of wheat standing
still for lack of any
breeze with which
the tall stalks can
commingle, he
has in his hand
the wishbone
sculpture. he
will never know
this, but it is
sculpted entirely
from stone
that had
been stolen
Tuesday, April 04, 2023
mmmcmxv
A Grave Mistake
It was in
the cards,
Jeffrey had
made a grave
mistake. While
it wasn’t exactly
a regular event,
Jeff cajoling his
friend Stu into doing
one of his tarot readings,
it seemed important
enough to Jeff this
evening to coax Stu
into getting out the
worn set of cards.
Jeff had this flirtateous
way of convincing Stu
of just about anything,
anyway, so that part
was easy peasy. And
Stu’s mastery of the
hopeful magic of his
set of cards was un
deniable. Stu did a
quick couple of shuffles
of the deck upon the
fabric of his faded denim
jeans that Jeff noticed
had Stu looking even
more desirable than
ever. Quick as the
clear skies in Arkansas
can twist with tumult
into an ominous, purple,
twister-replete storm
cloud, Jeff put this
thought out of his
mind and concentrated
on the issue at hand.
He’d been feeling app
rehension for some time
now and decided—the
big truth of the problem
which he would not men
tion to Stu—that the
apocalypse must be
coming soon. Was it?
He had to know. So
there they were,
Stu passing him
the shuffled deck,
as usual, with the
request to “open
sesame” – which
Jeff knew just meant
that he was to cut the
cards. And this he
did. Then he watched
as Stu spread the cards
out like a fan and asked
him to pick six. “Don’t
we usually do five?”
asked Jeff. Just pick
six, and place them
face up in a row,
right here – and he
drew an imaginary
horizontal line on
Jeff’s side of the
fanned out deck.
Jeff did as he was
told, and as he placed
the cards face up, had
no idea the names of any
of them, just trusted that
Stu would do his usual
astute assessment of the
problem so that Jeff could
decide how to deal with his
insecurities about the world
ending and concentrate on
those things that keep the
world, his world, going.
“Ooh,” said Stu, after
quite the pause, “you’re
in an arboretum.” “The
golden necklace!” pro
claimed Jeff. “Some
thing like that, yes.
Only you get lost
and wander into a
deep dark wood.”
“Huh?” “Yes, and
you wander this
wood, lost, for an
entire week. And
then, you find yourself,
finally, at a vast opening,
an exit from the wood.”
“And what’s this place?”
Jeff was, as always,
holding on to Stu’s
every word. “It’s
a red rock desert.”
“A what?” “Well,
the skies are clear,
not a cloud can be seen,
and it’s sunset, dusk,
the moment when
there’s a big halo over
the top of the sun as it
is being swallowed by,
in this case, the earth.
The lapis lazuli sky
turns the red buttes to
a bright orange, oddly
enough. A bit like the
orange that folks wear
in the woods or doing
highway or construction
work, for safety, you
know?” “Yes, okay,”
Jeff was lost in the
vision, so lost that
he had no idea
how uncomfortable
it was making Stu.
“Is that it?” “Yep,
that’s, um, pretty much
the entirety of what
this odd set of cards
are telling me.”
“Great, so it means
I just need to go
wandering around
through the jewel
necklace this weekend,
surely. And just get
lost. This could be
fun.” Jeff seemed
quite excited by this
prospect. Stu was
just sort of staring
into space. “Would
you like a dumpling?”
Jeff asked, “I’ve plenty
left over from lunch
in Chinatown. Jeff
got up to go to the
kitchen, even though
Stu didn’t say a word.
Just sort of sat there
staring in no particular
direction. Jeff loved
those hazel eyes of
his, and thought as
he made his way to
his kitchen that Stu
almost looked as if
he’d been hypnotized.
It was in
the cards,
Jeffrey had
made a grave
mistake. While
it wasn’t exactly
a regular event,
Jeff cajoling his
friend Stu into doing
one of his tarot readings,
it seemed important
enough to Jeff this
evening to coax Stu
into getting out the
worn set of cards.
Jeff had this flirtateous
way of convincing Stu
of just about anything,
anyway, so that part
was easy peasy. And
Stu’s mastery of the
hopeful magic of his
set of cards was un
deniable. Stu did a
quick couple of shuffles
of the deck upon the
fabric of his faded denim
jeans that Jeff noticed
had Stu looking even
more desirable than
ever. Quick as the
clear skies in Arkansas
can twist with tumult
into an ominous, purple,
twister-replete storm
cloud, Jeff put this
thought out of his
mind and concentrated
on the issue at hand.
He’d been feeling app
rehension for some time
now and decided—the
big truth of the problem
which he would not men
tion to Stu—that the
apocalypse must be
coming soon. Was it?
He had to know. So
there they were,
Stu passing him
the shuffled deck,
as usual, with the
request to “open
sesame” – which
Jeff knew just meant
that he was to cut the
cards. And this he
did. Then he watched
as Stu spread the cards
out like a fan and asked
him to pick six. “Don’t
we usually do five?”
asked Jeff. Just pick
six, and place them
face up in a row,
right here – and he
drew an imaginary
horizontal line on
Jeff’s side of the
fanned out deck.
Jeff did as he was
told, and as he placed
the cards face up, had
no idea the names of any
of them, just trusted that
Stu would do his usual
astute assessment of the
problem so that Jeff could
decide how to deal with his
insecurities about the world
ending and concentrate on
those things that keep the
world, his world, going.
“Ooh,” said Stu, after
quite the pause, “you’re
in an arboretum.” “The
golden necklace!” pro
claimed Jeff. “Some
thing like that, yes.
Only you get lost
and wander into a
deep dark wood.”
“Huh?” “Yes, and
you wander this
wood, lost, for an
entire week. And
then, you find yourself,
finally, at a vast opening,
an exit from the wood.”
“And what’s this place?”
Jeff was, as always,
holding on to Stu’s
every word. “It’s
a red rock desert.”
“A what?” “Well,
the skies are clear,
not a cloud can be seen,
and it’s sunset, dusk,
the moment when
there’s a big halo over
the top of the sun as it
is being swallowed by,
in this case, the earth.
The lapis lazuli sky
turns the red buttes to
a bright orange, oddly
enough. A bit like the
orange that folks wear
in the woods or doing
highway or construction
work, for safety, you
know?” “Yes, okay,”
Jeff was lost in the
vision, so lost that
he had no idea
how uncomfortable
it was making Stu.
“Is that it?” “Yep,
that’s, um, pretty much
the entirety of what
this odd set of cards
are telling me.”
“Great, so it means
I just need to go
wandering around
through the jewel
necklace this weekend,
surely. And just get
lost. This could be
fun.” Jeff seemed
quite excited by this
prospect. Stu was
just sort of staring
into space. “Would
you like a dumpling?”
Jeff asked, “I’ve plenty
left over from lunch
in Chinatown. Jeff
got up to go to the
kitchen, even though
Stu didn’t say a word.
Just sort of sat there
staring in no particular
direction. Jeff loved
those hazel eyes of
his, and thought as
he made his way to
his kitchen that Stu
almost looked as if
he’d been hypnotized.
Saturday, April 01, 2023
mmmcmxiv
Universal Perpendiculars
A generous crumb from your
red velvet cake fell into my
love potion. I’m in my Prius,
following you down this long,
winding dirt road; you’re a
quarter mile up in your pick-
up truck leaving a wake of
dust that cloaks and then
clobbers all of my bright
ideas. When we finally
get to the Dairy Queen,
we order banana splits.
They’re separate orders,
have to be, like we could
split our splits: I crumble
cookies into crumbs to
cover mine. On yours
you dispense a neat line
of mustard. I lay my arm
on top of yours just to
show us off to the world,
our bond, our differences,
my pink pearl bracelet
forms a cross with yours,
a beach bum vintage
macrame slung with
several slick faux
turquoise chunks.
Then they get twisted
and knotted together
somehow, we’re no
longer at the DQ,
but have been riding
horseback through a
vast open meadow,
our horses both resting
now, their reigns
slithering like snakes
upon the flayed grass
below their heads.
With a little jerk, I
finally break us free,
watch a smooth pink
pearl go flying over
our picnic basket and
land somewhere at
the bank of the lake
that is our lunchbreak
vista. The horses
neigh at each other,
almost giggle, but
neither of us notice
the horses or the pearl,
really. We’ve become
tight parallel universes
whose melded contours the
cool breeze gets to
know, but momentarily.
A generous crumb from your
red velvet cake fell into my
love potion. I’m in my Prius,
following you down this long,
winding dirt road; you’re a
quarter mile up in your pick-
up truck leaving a wake of
dust that cloaks and then
clobbers all of my bright
ideas. When we finally
get to the Dairy Queen,
we order banana splits.
They’re separate orders,
have to be, like we could
split our splits: I crumble
cookies into crumbs to
cover mine. On yours
you dispense a neat line
of mustard. I lay my arm
on top of yours just to
show us off to the world,
our bond, our differences,
my pink pearl bracelet
forms a cross with yours,
a beach bum vintage
macrame slung with
several slick faux
turquoise chunks.
Then they get twisted
and knotted together
somehow, we’re no
longer at the DQ,
but have been riding
horseback through a
vast open meadow,
our horses both resting
now, their reigns
slithering like snakes
upon the flayed grass
below their heads.
With a little jerk, I
finally break us free,
watch a smooth pink
pearl go flying over
our picnic basket and
land somewhere at
the bank of the lake
that is our lunchbreak
vista. The horses
neigh at each other,
almost giggle, but
neither of us notice
the horses or the pearl,
really. We’ve become
tight parallel universes
whose melded contours the
cool breeze gets to
know, but momentarily.
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