a long time under flying saucers.
later we still got glow behind
the waterfalls. went immediately
to the French big dog #340 and
also got with its glue. there was
lots of jazz. I tasted your make-up.
pretty cool. it was nuclear.
Saturday was the best. fourteen
years we danced. and at the
Cajun restaurant I’d keep the
sweat from dripping down your
ribs. a whole lot of time in Salem.
thirty-five years of lights. it was
very loud. I proceeded to lose
my new fleece gloves and threw
a telephone up to the stars.
first published in getunderground.com
over two decades in the making. a timeshifting autobiographical poetry collage w/photography. a diaristic, nearly "daily writing" (ad)venture. new pieces are posted most days.. **new and in progress** -- recordings of each poem are being added. these are read by the author & posted to each poem's page. --Del Ray Cross (contact delraycross at gmail)
Monday, October 31, 2005
Friday, October 28, 2005
lxix
boy, what drugged out kids
the scene I always appreciated, huh?
cruise control
problem is you can find anyone you want
I didn’t have the heart to tell him
I wasn’t too keen on Starbucks
Teevee von Toast
that behind-closed-doors avant action
I bought a cheap & very loud
orange polyester pullover
with navy epaulets
first published in getunderground.com
the scene I always appreciated, huh?
cruise control
problem is you can find anyone you want
I didn’t have the heart to tell him
I wasn’t too keen on Starbucks
Teevee von Toast
that behind-closed-doors avant action
I bought a cheap & very loud
orange polyester pullover
with navy epaulets
first published in getunderground.com
Thursday, October 27, 2005
lxviii
rejoice I worked so hard this week
even the staid birds done gone
frightened by the copters
other’n that and squabbling with
the men who fear
Mauricio’s
let them see their music high in that
book I’ve already read whatsit?
like lush leopards who crash against
the window that is usually just lashed
by the puffity wind
here he is he’s from Colombia
and on a Saturday night to boot
first a couple a pelicans wanted to do coffee
’n heard Ezra slur “hath no blood o’ crimson?”
they were very studied seemed better than
Ross’s crew
we quite deftly spluttered
“death to such sluts”
which I’ve got to factor into office politics
and the people who actually want to kiss my
dire ass
oh to be very thin
I say this because it’s so pretty to me
even when nobody’s flirty
nowhere
ah the heartblocked life
o’ the new kid
even the staid birds done gone
frightened by the copters
other’n that and squabbling with
the men who fear
Mauricio’s
let them see their music high in that
book I’ve already read whatsit?
like lush leopards who crash against
the window that is usually just lashed
by the puffity wind
here he is he’s from Colombia
and on a Saturday night to boot
first a couple a pelicans wanted to do coffee
’n heard Ezra slur “hath no blood o’ crimson?”
they were very studied seemed better than
Ross’s crew
we quite deftly spluttered
“death to such sluts”
which I’ve got to factor into office politics
and the people who actually want to kiss my
dire ass
oh to be very thin
I say this because it’s so pretty to me
even when nobody’s flirty
nowhere
ah the heartblocked life
o’ the new kid
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
lxvii
come on over here
I’m gettin kinda hungry
and wanna eat
all I had today was biscotti on a fresh bird
did I dug it?
yeah, like I talked and flirted
this endless part of me hasn’t
hit me yet
it’s all the cats and lions and
dogs in the south end
they’re really doin’ somethin’
and I’m not
I’m gettin kinda hungry
and wanna eat
all I had today was biscotti on a fresh bird
did I dug it?
yeah, like I talked and flirted
this endless part of me hasn’t
hit me yet
it’s all the cats and lions and
dogs in the south end
they’re really doin’ somethin’
and I’m not
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
lxvi
I lost it through my fingers
there was a time
that love will keep us
and then there was nothing
**
you measured my hand because
it plays the piano because
things turn out so good
and something started
**
on the way back we
lost power for a while
and froze
**
I watched a movie
got all emotional and
walked into the bedroom
and cried and cried
after a while you found me
and told me don’t weep
**
the trainride was 16 hours
there was a time
that love will keep us
and then there was nothing
**
you measured my hand because
it plays the piano because
things turn out so good
and something started
**
on the way back we
lost power for a while
and froze
**
I watched a movie
got all emotional and
walked into the bedroom
and cried and cried
after a while you found me
and told me don’t weep
**
the trainride was 16 hours
Monday, October 24, 2005
lxv
u may not have no idea
I had plastic surgery
maybe south maybe japan
it was at a mexican restaurant
I myself will be so sad
some nice guy mostly bombay
if I lose my hopes being here
in the blink of an eye
also there are loud but funny
don’t worry in the least I am here
by the end of
I had plastic surgery
maybe south maybe japan
it was at a mexican restaurant
I myself will be so sad
some nice guy mostly bombay
if I lose my hopes being here
in the blink of an eye
also there are loud but funny
don’t worry in the least I am here
by the end of
Friday, October 21, 2005
lxiv
people are either sleepy or gay
a coffee pushes the right button
finds NEW BOOKS reinforce
confidence and makes me feel
no call tomorrow no Saturday night
instead I went to sex-a-lot
aimlessly I mean
remove me I can’t drink anymore of this
to get me dizzy
very happy 20 yrs
as we have had some
at a Neiman Marcus
a coffee pushes the right button
finds NEW BOOKS reinforce
confidence and makes me feel
no call tomorrow no Saturday night
instead I went to sex-a-lot
aimlessly I mean
remove me I can’t drink anymore of this
to get me dizzy
very happy 20 yrs
as we have had some
at a Neiman Marcus
Thursday, October 20, 2005
lxiii
I was dancing at 9:30am
not flying to Florida in tercets
reading fanzines
inside my blue pants
two-three days floored
so grouchy with no
long-term mercy
did he apologize via e-mail
nope
I know this makes no sense
I’ve been wondering
why so many youths and yet
no carrot cake
I write a few letters
now it’s the point at which
I pick up the pink duster
you’d think he’d have
sent me a message by now
listening to a Russian
hummingbird over that tree
like the helicopters over the
anti-war rally last weekend
I was there
make no bones about it
it’s cloudy now and
just when he decides
that he loves me there’s
too much cigarette smoke
not flying to Florida in tercets
reading fanzines
inside my blue pants
two-three days floored
so grouchy with no
long-term mercy
did he apologize via e-mail
nope
I know this makes no sense
I’ve been wondering
why so many youths and yet
no carrot cake
I write a few letters
now it’s the point at which
I pick up the pink duster
you’d think he’d have
sent me a message by now
listening to a Russian
hummingbird over that tree
like the helicopters over the
anti-war rally last weekend
I was there
make no bones about it
it’s cloudy now and
just when he decides
that he loves me there’s
too much cigarette smoke
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
lxii
I’m not even sure if I spelled my state right
it’s an exciting life anyway
drinking water out of a bowl
doing a thousand things at once
which is what I like
just ask this rankled cop
I still have the little red towel
and am now celebrating 5 whole months
but I’m not even sure if I’m really here
the kitty box was cleaned inside the bathtub
I guess I know where I am
every once in a while
the shades go down
and I pop an analgesic
this incredible surge that gives me
an uncontrollable laugh
reading Amy Lowell
as the rain beats my heart
I need to get a job with creative juices
buy a new poster for the wall
I have no money
did you meet my new boyfriend
finally waking up
this time he’s blue on top
and full of compassion
quiet in the sense of a falling leaf
it’s time to go to the bank
and buy an answering machine
I live at 253 Lamartine Street
my new phone number is (617) 524-8701
it’s an exciting life anyway
drinking water out of a bowl
doing a thousand things at once
which is what I like
just ask this rankled cop
I still have the little red towel
and am now celebrating 5 whole months
but I’m not even sure if I’m really here
the kitty box was cleaned inside the bathtub
I guess I know where I am
every once in a while
the shades go down
and I pop an analgesic
this incredible surge that gives me
an uncontrollable laugh
reading Amy Lowell
as the rain beats my heart
I need to get a job with creative juices
buy a new poster for the wall
I have no money
did you meet my new boyfriend
finally waking up
this time he’s blue on top
and full of compassion
quiet in the sense of a falling leaf
it’s time to go to the bank
and buy an answering machine
I live at 253 Lamartine Street
my new phone number is (617) 524-8701
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
lxi
sleepy reading
after dishwashing
quite a mess
Wednesday
or this is what
Thursday is
somewhere
during the movie
I had an epiphany
a dime a dozen
but couldn’t wait
anyway I’d head
tree-blown
to Boston
which is Tuesday
he wakes me up
financially as if
a dream
we’re locked
arm-in-arm
I live here
next to my cat
in the year 1997
after dishwashing
quite a mess
Wednesday
or this is what
Thursday is
somewhere
during the movie
I had an epiphany
a dime a dozen
but couldn’t wait
anyway I’d head
tree-blown
to Boston
which is Tuesday
he wakes me up
financially as if
a dream
we’re locked
arm-in-arm
I live here
next to my cat
in the year 1997
Monday, October 17, 2005
lx
it’s nice in winter
been drivin’ what seems forever
just ask the patron saint of the internet
in defense of the car killing case
I’d like a scram slam
can you believe I’m moving to Boston
where a postal worker was released
he’s such a prick a pecan pie a hijacked truck
and a woman on trial
accused of running after a whole slice
that’s the art to bird-watching
out the glass-like window
to where I always used to pump gas
but not anymore
when I told him I was laid off
it was a one-two punch for investors
the psychiatrists worked overtime
I’m messing up
fuck this
and it’s gonna take a miracle
been drivin’ what seems forever
just ask the patron saint of the internet
in defense of the car killing case
I’d like a scram slam
can you believe I’m moving to Boston
where a postal worker was released
he’s such a prick a pecan pie a hijacked truck
and a woman on trial
accused of running after a whole slice
that’s the art to bird-watching
out the glass-like window
to where I always used to pump gas
but not anymore
when I told him I was laid off
it was a one-two punch for investors
the psychiatrists worked overtime
I’m messing up
fuck this
and it’s gonna take a miracle
Friday, October 14, 2005
lix
who therefore is not agnostic
surely everyone is drink water
look at the bay from the 28th floor
this I hope will get me out of Toledo
I just have to be smart read poetry
schedule meeting regarding
intellectual property
to defeat love
I must be very pleasant
just admit I have the stability
sip coffee look up time on telephone’s
LCD panel put letter opener back
I already know him from the carrel
he’s the bartender at Rocky’s
mousepad uneven
look up at my mint-new penchant
he’s standing in front of Klamath Falls
tacked to the pegboard next to my computer
with Big Apple tack
sticky note says office space
if possible
add’l invitees
mtg goals
we also talked with a congressman
on being observant
I’m artsy
reserved
intelligent
should I go Christmas shopping
the waving of the white flag
anything to take me away
surely everyone is drink water
look at the bay from the 28th floor
this I hope will get me out of Toledo
I just have to be smart read poetry
schedule meeting regarding
intellectual property
to defeat love
I must be very pleasant
just admit I have the stability
sip coffee look up time on telephone’s
LCD panel put letter opener back
I already know him from the carrel
he’s the bartender at Rocky’s
mousepad uneven
look up at my mint-new penchant
he’s standing in front of Klamath Falls
tacked to the pegboard next to my computer
with Big Apple tack
sticky note says office space
if possible
add’l invitees
mtg goals
we also talked with a congressman
on being observant
I’m artsy
reserved
intelligent
should I go Christmas shopping
the waving of the white flag
anything to take me away
Thursday, October 13, 2005
lviii
Chalk it up to experience or to
an exceptional gift for flattening things.
I’m at the Gypsy Cafe and my mind is
not my favorite song.
I wouldn’t object to a little remorse;
it’s to be downright expected but,
in fact, I’m literally weeping from a burst
of traditional matter (having parked
behind the house by the kitchen entrance –
of our old apartment on Catherine).
It was so full of endless possibilities,
pink and cream roses splayed against
an old brick wall, snow pittering
into the recycle bins, old movies at our
noses in the slim living room, some brown birds
flying in through the open windows,
mesmeric sex in the,
soft skin of....
For revenge, I’m leaning toward
the idea of Boston.
an exceptional gift for flattening things.
I’m at the Gypsy Cafe and my mind is
not my favorite song.
I wouldn’t object to a little remorse;
it’s to be downright expected but,
in fact, I’m literally weeping from a burst
of traditional matter (having parked
behind the house by the kitchen entrance –
of our old apartment on Catherine).
It was so full of endless possibilities,
pink and cream roses splayed against
an old brick wall, snow pittering
into the recycle bins, old movies at our
noses in the slim living room, some brown birds
flying in through the open windows,
mesmeric sex in the,
soft skin of....
For revenge, I’m leaning toward
the idea of Boston.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
lvii
just for the record
I’m eating tuna
over Paul Hoover
let’s write down
this message
“half a box of donuts”
I’m a complete jerk
and a complete asshole
“it’s dark, you know?”
and I’m totally sorry
and I guess it was all
a big shock
“no more birds today”
I just wanted you to know
and I really do
want us
to spend some time
I’m eating tuna
over Paul Hoover
let’s write down
this message
“half a box of donuts”
I’m a complete jerk
and a complete asshole
“it’s dark, you know?”
and I’m totally sorry
and I guess it was all
a big shock
“no more birds today”
I just wanted you to know
and I really do
want us
to spend some time
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
lvi
hello dear innocent
I’ve a feeling
a little of
being in love
for me to admit
like cake
like Prozac
is both help
I agree with people
your sentiments
it’s hard for me
to admit
I drink more coffee
than things are ok
more bundt cake
more doldrums
self-deprecating
to learn all there is
in 3 or 4 weeks
and start over again
makes me better
more stable
in the moment
onions and tomatoes
a caramel apple
with nuts
I would love
to know you
in the snow
falling down
on the job
let me finish let’s
just spend
the night
together
tomorrow night?
I’ve a feeling
a little of
being in love
for me to admit
like cake
like Prozac
is both help
I agree with people
your sentiments
it’s hard for me
to admit
I drink more coffee
than things are ok
more bundt cake
more doldrums
self-deprecating
to learn all there is
in 3 or 4 weeks
and start over again
makes me better
more stable
in the moment
onions and tomatoes
a caramel apple
with nuts
I would love
to know you
in the snow
falling down
on the job
let me finish let’s
just spend
the night
together
tomorrow night?
Monday, October 10, 2005
lv
I’m at the Clarion Hotel in Cleveland
where I’ve flexed my muscles for a bit.
You’d think I lived here.
To be more precise, I’ve been
on the phone a couple or three miles.
It’s silly to pay $60 a month just to do that.
‘You sound really hot.’ ‘Thank you for your
response to my ad.’
Omigod the food at this little restaurant is awesome!
There’s a lonely dove sitting on a branch,
and my hot bread,
baked in a flower pot.
where I’ve flexed my muscles for a bit.
You’d think I lived here.
To be more precise, I’ve been
on the phone a couple or three miles.
It’s silly to pay $60 a month just to do that.
‘You sound really hot.’ ‘Thank you for your
response to my ad.’
Omigod the food at this little restaurant is awesome!
There’s a lonely dove sitting on a branch,
and my hot bread,
baked in a flower pot.
Friday, October 07, 2005
liv
There was the fact that he
had been disengaged. That
he was in love with
someone else.
That the laundry was on.
That I hadn’t written any of this.
That the vacation
had just whizzed by. That I was
out of breath from six flights.
This is not a justification of any
kind. It’s been nice, all in all.
I’ve just sort of grown to
accept it.
Clouds deepening, a quiet
I’m not used to. Clothes
into the dryer. I tried calling
the number at 1110 N. Monroe
and it had been disconnected.
Humidity unbelievable.
Now I bet he was right,
although I am a bit curious.
According to what I’ve heard,
he’d been talking about splitting.
A pink box sits on the
third shelf up from
the bottom. Underneath
the pajamas. I wonder
what’s in it, though I
already know; I know
what an experiment this
life can be.
had been disengaged. That
he was in love with
someone else.
That the laundry was on.
That I hadn’t written any of this.
That the vacation
had just whizzed by. That I was
out of breath from six flights.
This is not a justification of any
kind. It’s been nice, all in all.
I’ve just sort of grown to
accept it.
Clouds deepening, a quiet
I’m not used to. Clothes
into the dryer. I tried calling
the number at 1110 N. Monroe
and it had been disconnected.
Humidity unbelievable.
Now I bet he was right,
although I am a bit curious.
According to what I’ve heard,
he’d been talking about splitting.
A pink box sits on the
third shelf up from
the bottom. Underneath
the pajamas. I wonder
what’s in it, though I
already know; I know
what an experiment this
life can be.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
liii
It’s a dreary day in Arkansas
after the swapmeet
a motorcycle bangs
into the birds’ coffee
at Creekmore Park
I’m settling into
soup from Quetzal
clouds I drove
the night with
olive trees all day
Saturday and
sleepy Charleston
the catty cat’s
napping on a tartan
out the bay windows
a chalk-shot spire
yep that cloudy
the curtains sashay
suggesting exhalations
into the melancholy courtyard
I want a productive
yet relaxful accent
I sure don’t feel like writing
but having my
face hairs trimmed
my love concurs
until I’m spruced
after the swapmeet
a motorcycle bangs
into the birds’ coffee
at Creekmore Park
I’m settling into
soup from Quetzal
clouds I drove
the night with
olive trees all day
Saturday and
sleepy Charleston
the catty cat’s
napping on a tartan
out the bay windows
a chalk-shot spire
yep that cloudy
the curtains sashay
suggesting exhalations
into the melancholy courtyard
I want a productive
yet relaxful accent
I sure don’t feel like writing
but having my
face hairs trimmed
my love concurs
until I’m spruced
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
lii
He slept over a second time
my place my new bed
then sitting at McDonald’s
waiting for lunch
I got up at eleven
let him sleep and made coffee
haven’t even got to play
because I’m working so hard
I crack the blinds
soak in blue
last night I talked for $125
they are so nice
my new Pentium computer
I built until 10pm
we got out of the movie
and talked about Miss Universe
where the birds are this
beautiful day I do not know
I am so broke
and unbelievably stable
my place my new bed
then sitting at McDonald’s
waiting for lunch
I got up at eleven
let him sleep and made coffee
haven’t even got to play
because I’m working so hard
I crack the blinds
soak in blue
last night I talked for $125
they are so nice
my new Pentium computer
I built until 10pm
we got out of the movie
and talked about Miss Universe
where the birds are this
beautiful day I do not know
I am so broke
and unbelievably stable
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
li
during a seminar on the
internet last night these thick
voiceboxes or whomever
were incredibly close to smoking
the cigarette of my lead-laden love
I thought I was in Cleveland
but the plaid-shirted man said
“endanger your success!”
this big news for another day
is just what I wanted
I assemble church bells
and bang them just about to
within the dim fullness
of the moon’s breath
yesterday he exhaled into my
ears and basically said that
I’m not meeting any of the
goals and objectives
that had been laid for me
so I open the booklet of shame
and spew any confidence
that I can perform into the
bell-ridden night
look at the pink bay grow
indigo under the bluer bridge
that’s starting to sparkle
so okay I’m a scapegoat
I have to ride out this rodeo
but it’s time for me to live
this could just be
the shot in the arm
that I never...
internet last night these thick
voiceboxes or whomever
were incredibly close to smoking
the cigarette of my lead-laden love
I thought I was in Cleveland
but the plaid-shirted man said
“endanger your success!”
this big news for another day
is just what I wanted
I assemble church bells
and bang them just about to
within the dim fullness
of the moon’s breath
yesterday he exhaled into my
ears and basically said that
I’m not meeting any of the
goals and objectives
that had been laid for me
so I open the booklet of shame
and spew any confidence
that I can perform into the
bell-ridden night
look at the pink bay grow
indigo under the bluer bridge
that’s starting to sparkle
so okay I’m a scapegoat
I have to ride out this rodeo
but it’s time for me to live
this could just be
the shot in the arm
that I never...
Monday, October 03, 2005
l
The dustbunnies are
chasing the cat around
underneath the table.
I recruit
a pink quilted towel
and a Windex bottle.
He calls a few minutes later
and then
blows up
under the
green mattress
with all of the animals.
I’m a little spooked
(down below I’m
damned frustrated).
Yesterday
at the office
my mug full of pens
moved from one side of my desk
to the
other side of my desk.
Very expressive.
Like they had some sort of
path to follow.
chasing the cat around
underneath the table.
I recruit
a pink quilted towel
and a Windex bottle.
He calls a few minutes later
and then
blows up
under the
green mattress
with all of the animals.
I’m a little spooked
(down below I’m
damned frustrated).
Yesterday
at the office
my mug full of pens
moved from one side of my desk
to the
other side of my desk.
Very expressive.
Like they had some sort of
path to follow.
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